Sunday, October 31, 2010

Dear Tumblr,
Obviously this picture shows that my moms sick. She unfortunately has colon cancer. I think many of you can relate to me and my mother. You prob. know someone you dearly love that has some type of cancer, and this one goes out to all of you who’s mom, dad, sister, brother, sibling, or family member is dealing with cancer. Its obviously tough being in a situation like this, knowing your love one is extremely sick. It hurts alot, and for all of you heres my story:
I hated my mom. I really did, from the coming age of preteen years to middle school years, Only did I realize that My mom meant everything to me once all of us found out she had stage 2 colon cancer. I treated my mom like shit, yelled at her, stressed her out, rebelled, even sometimes hit her back when she’d punish me and hit me. Yeah I pretty much treated her like straight up doo-doo, and I regret that. For all of you with a mom that gives you everything, a home, cloths, love. Cherish that, because honestly… I dont know how much time left my mom has on this earth. We thought the cancer was fully taken out, but it was not… there unfortunately was some left in her stomach, and it spread and got worse. Im extremely worried for my mommy. While others may be just treating their moms like shit at the moment. Thats why I never tell anyone I hate my mom anymore like I used to, because I learned my lesson. Now my mom has cancer Ive realized its time to change my ways and make her happy. I pray for her every day to get better, and seeing her like this hurts me then you can ever imagine. You guys are probably upset at the fact you cant get this or that or you cant go out here or there, while Im stressed and upset at the fact my mom has a 50/50 percent chance of living a full life. I’d do anything for her to be healthy, and Mom im sorry that I used to be such a bad child, that I didnt give a shit what you did, and made you feel like you raised your child to treat you like dirt. I really hurt you in the past years, and now that I’ve realized it, It may be too late. I love you so much mom. I thank you for being there for me, even when I was little, even when I treated you like dirt. Thank you for showing me the world in a whole different perspective. I want to grow up to become just like you. I tell you everything, and Im not afraid to tell you about what happened in school, about my boy problems, about my friend problems, your truly the only one who really listens to me and sticks by me no matter what. Thank you for giving me a home, cloths, and almost everything ive asked for even if I didn’t deserve any. Thank you for teacing me whats wrong and whats right, which I now have learned. You taught me well mom, Ive grown to become as respectful and beautiful as you, and I will live on being just like you, so that its like you’ll never leave this earth. Thanks for changing me into a better person, Honestly without you in my life I would still be smoking, drinking, and prob. dead by now. I love you so so much mom, because get better. Your my best friend.
“You’ll never know what you have, until its gone.”
Ps. Please put my mom in your prayers, she really needs it and sorry if I look like a mess, I’ve been crying every since yesterday(my 15th birthday) and today. Im tired.
-Charisse (theskyisinlovewithyou)

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